I just opened up a bit to a brother for the first time…i’m reminded of things now though. Still, I’m happy that I have someone to talk to about this now. I think it’s about time I face these thoughts and emotions. I need to stop running away like i have been the past couple weeks.
If I could redo that day, I would have fought.
I’m so freaking tired of constantly trying to meet people’s expectations and failing every time.
I am here with you. Though we’re far apart, you’re always in my heart. - Michael Jackson, You Are Not Alone
Very true
(Source: leilockheart)
So Ed showed me this movie (I threw in your name as opposed to just saying my friend because I thought you’d be like “aww yeah~” if you saw this post LOL. Dang. First time in a long time that a movie made me tear up. Not going to say too much for people who read this, but haven’t watched the movie. heehee~
One main thought came to mind as I was watching this. How did the guy not go insane? I know unrequited love and how hard it is to love for the other person’s happiness as opposed to your own, but his situation was on an entirely different level. He lived with her and saw her 24/7. He was basically living a life as a couple with her. She was his everything. He knew that if he could live longer, he would’ve been able to have her. He knew that she could have loved him back. So how? How didn’t he go insane from knowing all this and still living for her benefit and not his own? This is where the street scene came along. You see him crumble. You see all his sadness just overflowing. He wasn’t tolerating it. He was dying physically and emotionally everyday. ”If you’re happy then I’m happy.” Such a cliche line that everyone uses. It’s something people who struggle with unrequited love believe, but it’s not true. We’re made selfish people. That cliche line is a lie. You know what your heart desires, and when you don’t have it, regardless of whether the one you love is happy or not, it hurts.
A movie about unrequited love and the pain that it brings, but at the same time shows how beautiful it is.